“I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.”

While listening to a romantic song makes me feel – “Why there is no one in my life? Why am I still single?” Rather feeling romantic ,it makes me feel sad and think what is lacking in me that I am still single and I have no boyfriend in my life.

I know , Committed ones would be advising me , Its good to be single and have loads of fun with friends ...blah blah, Bullshit!!!. So If I want to make a boyfriend...have small fights with him, talk about romantic stuffs ... I just want to know how does it feel to have someone in your life who cares for you the most besides your parents. Whats wrong with it? Not necessary to make a life time commitment.

O’cmn , u guys would be saying oh!!! God those couples are not serious , how can they do such thing... how they can have romance with 2 – 3 guys, exceptional cases are there. We make mistakes , we learn from our mistakes and thats how life goes on.

We single ones have lot many crushes... countless. We search for qualities , go by looks first...its kind of fun you know. Staring at each other, not knowing each other ... trying to know the guy...lol. We make a lot of research and once we come to know that the guy likes another girl or he is committed we jump to the next . And if he is not, we move into the next step try to make friends those who are close to him and if the guy feels the same for the girl , he will make the move... right, I guess so. We try to keep ourselves happy by talking about our crush. That’s how we single ones make our life more interesting. Phew!!! Sometimes we have to read articles like “ how to get over a crush”..gross

When someone approaches in our life, we check our list of qualities we look in for a guy first. Even if we want to get committed we are so afraid inside .. what will happen if he is not the right guy, what if he is gonna hurt me, I will be lying to my parents... all this negative stuffs come into our mind coz we always look out for the perfect one.

To all my crushes out there, I know you guys have little hints that I had a crush on you...lol. I dont know which number you were in my crush list but just so you know I had a crush on you. It was because you had those qualities that I was searching for in a guy. Congratulations to all my crushes. And you know what , I am still waiting for you ...kinda fun you know.

And to all old fashioned guys and girls( whoever you are, thinking wrong about me just coz I am writing about all of these stuffs) , its nothing bad to let out your feelings. We are all human beings, we have feelings and its better to let it out rather than keeping it inside of you. Whether it is infatuation or love , fate will decide... If you are destined to meet, you will meet .

Quotes:

1. I think it’s weird when I love you, I think it’s weird when I want you, when you don’t even know I’m there.

2. I sit here and wonder if you’ll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.

3. Life and love is kinda funny sometime cause the guys we want are so hard to get,but the ones that we don’t want...are so hard to get rid of....

4. People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.

Crushes get Crushed

This is something I am writing it down which I always spoke (and still even now) to myself ... alone whenever I am ( sounds so weird). I always wished to write down for my blog... and here I am .This is I hope most of them feels the same like me ... the only difference is that I am writing it down openly.

Watching a love story movie like 'The walk to remember' , 'Cinderalla story '...etc, infact in almost every movie there seems to be a small love story hidden. When I see someone being cared, being understanding , I also wish that if he was with me now .... he would have also done to me the same... so understanding,... sacrifices in a relationship to get your loved ones ... seems like u have a real beautiful love story in your life.

Crushes!!! I feel everyone have crushes and even I do have many crushes ( countless) but there is always a special crush among all the countless crushes ... why?

Because he is the one , the one in your dream you always imagined... charming prince. But does it really happen in your life ...what you want you get it?... in my case no...its a BIG NO.

My crushes always got crushed. It feels so bad and sad. When I lose you it brings me so much pain, my heart cries and speaking out loudly inside when you are gonna come and take me with you into our world ...

Why does love hurts so much, brings so much pain and happiness ... both?

Why do crushes always brings pain, joy even though they are just crushes?

Always I wanted to be perfect for him still then something was missing in me ... he was looking for , I just missed out so he never felt the same ... feelings I had for him. He took always as a friend, a stranger ... I tried to put some little hints but still then he walked away.

I found the reason why?... coz in the path of life, there's always roughness and smoothness in every road you take / choose.

I am not a perfect person for you ... I know but I will always try to make myself... your Perfect Girl, you always wished for. But please feel the same , express it the same I do looking at my eyes.

Smiles brings joy in our life,

Faith brings hope in our life,

Friend brings happines in our life,

Love brings the beautiful world around you that you always searched for.

A Friend

Enjoying each and every moment of our life seems to be difficult even though we try very hard as we all know Life is not a bed of roses. Angriness, sadness, lying to a friend ... all these are a part of a human being nature can't really help it to avoid unless you become/ are a monk.
Because of some of the negativeness in us leads to misunderstanding among 2 friends/ people leading to a big gap, space between them .

All these sadness, happiness...emotions needs to be shared with someone. Someone who is very close to your heart... that is none other than a friend. A true friend is a friend who is always beside you , helping you as if he /she is standing and facing the situation in place of you.

You are sad but tear-drops are there in your friend's face
You are smiling but happiness is there in your friend's face

... if u get a friend really of that kind..you can say "God has given me everything in my Life" and I can say "You are one of the Luckiest person on this earth".
Sometimes we want us to be left alone...needs loneliness but how many days, months we are gonna stay alone.

Parents are your teachers ... guides and show you the right path, friend is an angel ,a companion always there with you. People say one can judge you by the circle of friends you are with.Why is it so? Some friends are there who is very hard from outside like a coconut shell but once you get to know them nicely ... they are as sweet as the coconut water. So I never believe it in first impression is the last impression. Unless the person hurts you can never say anything about him ...by the rumours you had heard about him.

In this world, very few people can be trusted. Never expect anything from return . Be mean ... be busy, do your work and show others that you are a successful person. When all these sentences people say to you... when you are being hurt by a friend, when someone betrayed you.
To get a precious one ... you need to try hundreds of them but in return you should be precious for them too. I am not saying share everything... secrets; small situations will judge you automatically who you are and how your friend is. If you break trusts , do bitching about your friend on one side and on the other side you are showing loyalty ...thats really not done ... remember always not today but tomorrow you will surely face loneliness in your life coz people will lose faith in you. You will have everything around you but deep inside heart you are not happy... big pain ... no one to cure because you have no friends around you to bring joy in your life.

This is what is Nature's law " You get what you give"

You are the One

5th August, 2009

It's 8:42pm and suddenly stroked in my mind while listening to the song "You are the One" to write something in my diary about my feelings, my days how I spent with my friends and how my heartfelt when I had crush on someone...lol. I mean anything and everything.
It is said " Life is not a bed of roses"... yup! you can say that to get something in your life you have to work hard bear the pain and wait for the result...and when you don't get the desired fruit , it hurts.

But what we can do , move forward in our life with lot of pain in our heart. If there is no one to share with, no one to console, we feel more pain.
Just think about , you are so lucky to have friends. Someone to listen to , someone to shed your tears away, even if u have said it hundred times the same thing.... u never have realised even, your friend listens to you as many times you asked her, you wanted to be consoled. So what to say, you are lucky to have beautiful friends around you , you are NOT ALONE.

And the ones, who is being betrayed by their friends....very difficult to trust someone again, or because of his/her shyness nature have no close friends. How they feel?
Go to a dark place where there is no one... express their feelings, talk to themselves.... sounds weird. Write in the diary.Hmm... do u know what? let me tell you something, two things in your life you can always trust upon. one: Almighty God ; two : mirror. God is my Best friend... he is everyone's best friend, but one needs to accept His invitation , card is always being beside you . Just pick it up and accept it. HE is listening to you silently , making a bigger plan, something surprising , special than others. So you just need to believe in yourself, things will not remain the same as ever. You might have bared more hardships than others but that much fruits u will get too, triple the amount. All you need to have is Hope in yourself. I know how difficult it is, (it's easy to give suggestion but difficult to bare...most ppl say but still then...) all you need to do is keep yourself busy with useful, fruitful stuffs, to get rid out of the situation.

Just remember always " Every Problem has a solution, and that solution is not at the back pages of the book ,It is WITHIN YOU "

One of THE precious gifts in my Life

It was the year 2003 , when I joined my new school. Everything around me was so weird. The first few days was very difficult for me to suit myself in that different world... it was obvious.
Not getting a seat in the class, had to borrow a bench from another class...lol. I was known as the girl who barely speaks hindi ( as I was not fluent in that language), has chubby cheeks and is very quiet in the class.Moreover, I was in the section where I didn't knw anyone, none of my friends was in that section.

Things got slowly easy for me as I was able to adjust in the environment. I started to make friends and among them was Varun, a guy who always a topper in the class. Oh God! he was in the Heaven , and I was there standing on earth looking at him and thinking how he can be so intelligent, not egoistic and such a good human being that he can be friendly with anyone.( Point to be noted ) He was known as the guide book in the Maths tuition class, has every problem solutions... so honest with his work and studies.

The friendship between us grew... how, I have no idea. I started to share with him everything and anything .... idiotic talks, nonsense jokes... and he even laughed ( might b thinking the worst joke I ever heard..lol), my secrets.Well! I am a girl, who thinks a lot ... ( which is not good) , so when I share my feelings and thoughts, my dreams with him... even though it was boring , he would hear patiently as if very eager to hear and finds out a solution. Ask him some of the silliest questions related to studies, he would explain it to you patiently.When I get bad marks in my papers ... one thing he would say it to me, Laugh at yourself rather crying ... for what you have got, make yourself feel ashamed so you can do better next time.
" AN inexhaustible good nature is one of the most precious gifts of Heaven, spreading itself like oil over the troubled sea of thought, and keeping the mind smooth and equable in the roughest weather"

And that precious gift is within you Varun.

Do you know what... whenever my roomies talk about their school friends, I mostly talk about you... ( Varun). You are dearest among all of them. When I talk to you, I am just myself... feels so free .I don't know how God made you pick me up as your friend, I am so lucky and I thank God for this. We are so different from each other , u r so cool minded and I am so hot- tempered... luckily we haven't had a fight till today( yup! u were rite ).... (& I never wanna imagine that situation). You are like an angel who makes my moody face smile (... on 22nd july, I was very upset and all my memories was flashing back, so I talked to him over the phone...n on the nxt day when I woke up in the morning , I got a very beautiful , funny message from him :: " Goodmrng! aaj Daniel Radcliffe ka b'day hain na.. party de rh h kya? ".... It was so sweet). I am just speechless, these word are nothing when comes to real you, you are just incredible. You worth more than a friend.
Love you always dear... Varun bro. :)